a colored spectrum

i think you think

took up another research project, so i am working 6 days a week now.
research is not as enjoyable and fulfiling as i imagined it to be.
i still prefer working in the food and beverage service industry.
nothing beats seeing my customer smile with sincere satisfaction.

right now i am mentally, physically and emotionally drained.
all jobs are mentally and physically tiring that i have to admit.
but my private life is draining me emotionally more than it is supposed to.

i tried picking myself up earlier, and not behave negatively.
i tried to be all loving and warm again.
but it didn't work as well as i thought it would.
i just want to give up althogether. coz i am no longer happy.

we want different things.
he chooses to stay home and watch tv in bed after work and on weekends.
i choose to go out and unwind over poison after work and play sports during the weekend.
i enjoy doing interesting stuff, going outdoors for a run or swim.
he enjoys staying home or going to East Coast Mac Cafe to chill.

we just want different things.
he wants a vacation to Koh Samui and bum at the beach resort.
yes, Le Meridien comfy lodge.
i want to travel far on a shoe string budget.
bagpack to shanghai or new york city.

i am tired of obligating on both sides.
i have my life which i want to live with fulfilment.
you should too. let's reconsider our priorities.

posted by Veen @ 23:26